It broke my heart when I found out that I would not be able to breastfeed Roman. One of my medications would be harmful to him if ingested through the breast milk. I had to think about my health first. If I was not healthy, I would not be able to care for my baby. I could not risk stopping the medication and be unable to mother my child. My doctors helped make this difficult decision a little easier for me.
I have received some criticism for this decision by well-meaning mothers, but I stand by my decision. I am now more careful of what I say to others that may be interpreted as critical. There are so many moms out there who would love to breastfeed, but it is simply not an option. Whether it be because of a medical condition, a medication, or baby's intolerance to the breast milk...it doesn't matter. Moms out there who are bottle-feeding have a good reason for it. It just makes us feel even more guilty when others ask "why?" I now know that it doesn't matter why. You have to do what's best for you and your child.
I am learning through this difficult process that there are pros and cons to formula-feeding. One good thing is you know exactly what your baby is eating and how much. However, my favorite part about formula feeding is the amazing help I have from my husband, Jonathan! I know he has enjoyed bonding through feeding times just as much as I have. Jonathan has been gracious enough to take the "night shift" almost every night. I have also had help on night duty from my dear mother. I am blessed with a loving family!
Unfortunately, the additives in formula can be hard for babies to digest. I am learning this the hard way. Our sweet Roman is not a good sleeper...yet. His gas wakes him up multiple times within the 3 hour window between feedings. I know we are only 3 weeks in, but we are going to switch to the "Sensitive" formula to see if we find any improvements. We will keep you posted...
